I really like our discussions at Special Classes of the group and field seminars, as there comes a new reading of the material and something subtle begins to reach. Sometimes it is difficult to explain it in words, but through yourself you celebrate that something has turned around, changed, and this is great. Gradually you change yourself, and the world around you responds. sometimes it seems that you are barely crawling with small steps to your goal, but when you look back you realize that you have already overcome not so little, and at some moments it begins to seem that everything is happening very quickly that you do not even have time to track all the changes when they occurred that changed. Sometimes these perestroika can be very painful, but then comes the understanding that it is no longer possible to leave the old way, and you just need to live. But then a new wave comes, and you are already floating in a calm ocean and watching its beauties that you did not notice before.
Thanks for sharing! Good luck on your way!